Its a cruel world!!

Have you ever felt that you were not pretty or skinny enough? Well, you are not alone!! We, girls, are living in a society where we all should be beautiful or skinny!! If we don't fit what society wants we get into a depressed because we think people are constantly staring at us! As a bigger girl I have been in a depressed situation because I think people are constantly staring me, or none of my clothes seem to fit my body just right!! I tend to think of Christina Aguilera's song "beautiful" and realize I shouldn't care what people think!! Well since I have become depressed I realized that I am going on a diet!! I am not trying to lose weight for anyone, but myself!! I know in the end I will lose weight, and I will be happy!! I am gonna have a different blog to discuss my weight loss journey!! Until next... "you are beautiful, no matter what they say"- Beautiful by Christina Aguilera

Cruise 2012

Well its been a few days since I have written, so the thing I wanted to write about was the next NKOTB cruise happening in 2012!! Well I won't know until Thursday if I am going because I have to get a room booked!! There are so many girls wanting to go so I have to at first try to get a room!! I will definitely post my excitement if I get a room Thursday!! At first I wanted to get the penthouse suite so I could be in the first 2 rows!! Well in order to get that room you have to have a roommate!! I have searched for a roommate just so I could get that room! Well I thought about it and decided to room by myself because I could come and go in my room as I please, I could watch tv as long as I want once in the room for the night!! I may be quiet, but this year I am going to have the time of my life!! I might meet friends easily, but then again I am not going for anyone, but to enjoy the time with the guys!! I am hoping I get a good Donnie pic this year!! Hopefully I will get a Jordan pic too!! The best part is is that I will get my photo op with all the guys by myself!! I am sooo excited I don't know how I will be able to contain myself for 9 months!! ahhh... i am definitely so happy!! let's all hope I get a room Thursday at 12 pm EST!!! woohoo!! lets cruise this 2012!!!

Fear? Fear.

I know my title isn't much, but thats the only title I could think of when writing about death!! I know one day and it will come that I won't be here! Am I scared? Or am I ready? Yes, I amdefinitely scared, and I would like to believe I am ready!! Wouldn't you be afraid knowing that one day you are going to leave this world? I know when we die I will be in a better place!! I do in fact, believe in heaven and hell!! I know that I will be going to heaven one day, and I know I will definitely be ready at that time!! Maybe I am afraid that I am going to die at a young age, or that I am going to miss out on the important things when I leave? I don't think anybody wants to die, but we all have to face the fact that it will happen eventually!! I do get sad when I think of the important people leaving me!! I have been afraid ever since I was younger!! I also get a lil depressed when I think of my dogs passing away!! I don't know what I will do when they do pass!! The main thing is I need to enjoy my time with my puppies! The fact is, is nobody knows how long they have left on this plant!! The main thing is we need to live each day like it is our last!! No, you should not be worried that I wrote about death because I just needed to write what I was feeling!! So go ahead and live your life to the fullest!! Also, speak to the people you have grown estranged from because you dont want to regret anything if something ever happens!! It is about time that we forgive and forget the little things!! I know after this post I will go say sorry to the people that I love!! Never forget to say I love you to your loved ones, and last but not least cherish each day!!!