It's hard to think like this

Have you ever had a need you wanted so badly that it hurts? That is the situation I am in right now. For the past 8 months I have wanted a baby so I could have a family!! I have a problem though. It's not that I can't get pregnant, but its another problem!! A very personal problem that I don't feel like sharing!! I have waited to want children until I grew up and was more mature. Well, that time has come!! I am 25, I am more mature than ever (at least I think so), and I have been married for 5 years!! Don't you think it's time that we have a family. I was going to wait until I lost a lot of weight, but then it dawned on me that it could be a while longer!! I am actually tired of waiting!! It hurts my heart to know something personal is going on, and I can't tell anyone because it is quite embarrassing!! I know I am a little on the heavier side, but I know I would make a great mom!! hmmm...... I don't know what else to say!! I just had to write this little blog to get it off my chest!! Well, until next time!! See ya!!